Expectations. . .

I have very high expectations for the people in my life. I consider myself to be a pretty good friend..I try to always be there if someone needs help...or if someone just needs to talk. I always try to brighten the dayof those who matter most to me.

I expect my friends to do the same.

Sometimes I feel it's very easy to push my friendship aside. I think my friends think that Im just always going to be there, that I am a push-over. It hurts. And Im afraid its going to turn me into a bitch.

Lately its kind of like Ive lost the friendship of a couple of very important people in my life, and it is because I kind of just gave up. Im to the point where I can only try for so long, and leave so many voicemails and messages and then I can't do it anymore. I cant give and give and give with out getting anything in return. I'm too worn out. . . it's sad that I am only 22 and already feel burnt out on putting myself out there.

Im done wanting people in my life that dont want to be there. Id rather be alone.

All I need is Jesus and His love..and I have that. So I dont need anything else. He always lives up to my expectations and is ALWAYS there for me. Amen.

Ive kind of just made myself sad again..ha..so I guess I'll end this blog now.

Have a good day everyone and God Bless!