Expectations. . .

I have very high expectations for the people in my life. I consider myself to be a pretty good friend..I try to always be there if someone needs help...or if someone just needs to talk. I always try to brighten the dayof those who matter most to me.

I expect my friends to do the same.

Sometimes I feel it's very easy to push my friendship aside. I think my friends think that Im just always going to be there, that I am a push-over. It hurts. And Im afraid its going to turn me into a bitch.

Lately its kind of like Ive lost the friendship of a couple of very important people in my life, and it is because I kind of just gave up. Im to the point where I can only try for so long, and leave so many voicemails and messages and then I can't do it anymore. I cant give and give and give with out getting anything in return. I'm too worn out. . . it's sad that I am only 22 and already feel burnt out on putting myself out there.

Im done wanting people in my life that dont want to be there. Id rather be alone.

All I need is Jesus and His love..and I have that. So I dont need anything else. He always lives up to my expectations and is ALWAYS there for me. Amen.

Ive kind of just made myself sad again..ha..so I guess I'll end this blog now.

Have a good day everyone and God Bless!

Angela.

Yesterday was a REALLY bad day for me..like could hardly open my eyes this morning because they were so swollen from crying yesterday...

but then I read your 'response blog'. And I laughed..alot..and outloud. That was the only time I smiled yesterday.


THANK YOU!

Kristi.

I was totally waiting for you to text me again AFTER the ultrasound..I wanna know how it went..Im about dying in anticipation!!

Im working until 11pm...you know the number.

My 2nd Dedication

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My List

Here's my plan:

I'm going to put my list of things I want to bring to Chicago next weekend(we're leaving Friday afternoon and coming home Sunday sometime) in hopes that other people (besides Kristi..i do love you though..my little travel agent) will read this and think of something that I have forgotten. So if you read through my list and are like 'hello! You totally forgot this thing that you will need. So here goes...thanks in advance!!

1. My Medicine/plus tylenol
2. Shampoo/Conditioner/Body Wash/Face Wash/Razor/Deodorant
3.Toothbrush/Toothpaste
4. Hairbrush/ Hair products (hairspray...de-frizz...comb...curling iron)
5. Make-up
6. Lotion/Perfume
7. Jewelry
8. Munchies (for the drive there and back, and at night)
9.Phone Charger/Phone (Obviously)
10. Deck of Cards
11. My Homework
12. Sunglasses
13. Socks (for sleeping)
14. Undergarmets
15. a "Travel" outfit for the drive down on Friday
16. Outfit for dinner on Friday Night
17. Pajama's for Friday Night
18. Outfit for lunch on Saturday
19. Outfit for 'hanging out' after lunch on Saturday
20. Outfit for dinner on Saturday Night
21. Pajama's for Saturday Night
22. 'Hang Out' outfit for Sunday
23. "Travel" outfit for Sunday
24. Swimsuit
25. Towel
26. Passport(it's kind of like a hotel employee I.D. thing)
27. Camera(s)

Sooo...there it is..please please PLEASE comment me if I forgot anything!!!

ps-I SO miss coffee :(

9-5er

So here I am!! sitting at my desk, after sleeping until 7am and just getting done with my hour lunch. Yes, I'm loving it.


True, I wish I would have brought a book..or some homework..and a blanket. But really..this is great.
I'm helping out a friend of the family today and tomorrow by working at his insurance agency..all I have to do is answer the phone, kinda field it a little, and pass it through to the only other worker here...who is a guy about my age and is actually fun to talk to..I even got a name of a new artist that has good music as far as a few snipits go.

After work today I have my Issues in Business Ethics class at 5:45, it's going to be a little tight getting there..but we'll see. I'm kind of excited about the class to be honest..I hope we get to write papers and stuff.
Speaking of class and work...it has been one crazy week. This week I'll be working about 45 hours...plus 12 credit hours at school..an online class..eye specialist appointment..where I found out I'll need to have a minor surgery on my eye...plus trying to plan a trip to Chicago next weekend. H.E.C.T.I.C. but the week sure has flown by.

It's kind of sad though..I havent seen Melissa once this week..I havent seen Stephen since Monday..I see my parents for about 20 minutes a day...and Im just tired..Im still trying to get over my 'allergies' (whatever) And I do love being this busy...but I miss my favorite boy and girl. And coffee...LORD do I miss coffee...it's only been about 3 days but MAN can I feel the lack of caffiene..Im still drinking pop and stuff...but only clear pop..because Im trying to whiten my teeth a smidge before Chicago..and Im gonna TRY to go tanning..atleast I'll be able to lay down and relax there right? It's funny...Stephen and Melissa would bend their schedules (with in reason) anyway they could so we could hang out...but then there are other people...other 'friends' who are only going to be here for a short time and have made promises...but don't return phone calls or emails. You wouldnt believe how unimportant it can make one feel..BUT...I won't wait around...I have too many good people in my life to be brought down for someone who has changed..for the worse.
I'm hungry too, and Im going to have to wait until after class to eat..that'll be about 9pm tonight..and lets see..yep I had a bowl of rice krispies at about 8 and then 2 poptarts...thats it. but tomorrow..Aaron is gonna go get us lunch from somewhere downtown...so that's exciting.
But I digress...I have a task at hand...I need to look up some claims(how fun is that?!)

ps-coffee sounds good...gosh I miss it.

I wish I was more creative...I wish had more to write about...

but lets face it..I'm kind of boring.


The Basics:

I'm a 5"7', 121lbs, 22 year old female who found out she had rheumatoid arthritis in 2nd grade.

I work the front desk at a hotel pretty much full time and attend the local community college full time.

I live at home with my parents.

I'm okay with living at home with my parents.

I've never had the misfortune of someone close to me passing away.

I have just one boy who..whether he knows it or not..has a very large part of me.

I have four best friends.

I am not a fan of the 'bar scene'

I do not drink alcohol regularly.

I do not smoke.

I've never gone sky diving..never swam with a dolphin...have never been out of the country for some glorious vacation or some wonderful missions trip.


And for now...that is just fine with me :)