In Need....

I am struggling.

I am in need of prayer, even if only 2 people read this. :)

I'm not sure if I want to just put everything out there, on here..

I'm feeling let down, forgotten, not important enough or memorable.

I was on a down spiral for a while, and I thought this would help me, kind of pick me up, and help me stay up so I wouldn't go down again. And that thing that I thought would help, let me down. I agonize over this everyday, wondering why, what's wrong with me, how could it have happened? Gah..
I suppose it's made me more independent..and that's a HUGE plus. And because I'm dramatic today..it's also jaded me. I thought this would be my 'safe haven' of never ending support and encouragement and positiveness, and now I have this sour taste in my mouth.


When will I be memorable? When will people keep their word to me? Maybe this is God teaching me a lesson on patience? Maybe He's trying to tell me that I don't depend on Him enough?


To leave off on a lighter note..I am about half way done with my Camp Dakota post, so look for that in the next day or two :)

Excitement is in the air!

I am heading to Camp Dakota on Sunday, and I am so excited! It is a camp for visually and hearing impaired kids. But the week I'm going (7/27/08-8/01/08) they are also going to have kids with Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis..for those of the 3 people that read this, just incase you don't know, that's what I have. I am so excited and feel so blessed to have this opportunity to be a counselor! I will be in charge of probably 3 girls, anywhere from the ages of 7-16. I can't wait to show them how great life can be, even with a disability. I hope I can be an uplifting influence to them. :)

Last night was amazing! I went to Mars Hill Bible Church and had the chance to Listen to Kent and Ed Dobson and man...does God speak clearly to me through those men! This was the first time I had heard Kent speak, but I have had the opportunity to meet Ed a couple of times with Stephen, he was quite the amazing man, Ed is. I can't wait to hear him speak again in a couple of weeks when I get back from camp!

ps- I think I want to go back to Vegas..soon..now I just need a job..a full time job...I'm open for suggestions!

Independent

I am finally on my own. Mostly. I will definitely be writing more later on how I got the chance to live on my own. But for now, I want to whine.

I am trying to be more independent and do things by myself. No one told me that Independence comes at a price. What does it cost you ask? Pain.

I seriously hurt my back..I mean really. Why? Because I needed to lift all of those damn boxes by myself! It was my stuff, and I was moving it to my place..

so I was the one that should move them.

Ever heard of the expression, 'Lift with your knees'? I need to learn how to do that.

I love living on my own :)

What if's, Maybe's, and Things I Love

I have a lot of 'What ifs" going through my head lately...and a lot of things that could 'Maybe" happen. It's all very excited, but at the same time, I am trying to be careful as to not get my hopes up TOO high.

::Insert New Subject::

Things I love:
Coffee
The Color Pink
My New Hair Cut
My New Hair Color
The Fact That it is Summer
I am Getting Closer to Jesus
Slowly, I am Feeling More Independent, Depending on the Day :)
My Cell Phone
That I Have a Job
My Steve Madden Sandals
My Gucci Purse and Matching Wallet
Being Tan
Laying on the Beach
Being a Christian
SunShine
Hugs
Kisses
Being in Love
HOLDING HANDS
Moving on from Mistakes in the Past
Kristi McWilliams!!!



I'll wait until I find out for sure, but I am SUPER excited about a big MAYBE..because its a PROBABLY.

I'm out of things to write

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Hi Kristi :)

*Las Vegas* Pictures

This was my favorite building in all of Las Vegas

Erin and I in front of Paris

Everytime Erin and I would leave, we would take a picture in the mirror on the ceiling while we were wating for the elevator, we're on our way to do some shopping and the Hoover Dam here.

On top of the Stratosphere, 109 stories up!!

Jake

<---- This is Jake, he is my Cousin's Dustin and Renee's Dog. Cute right? I am dog sitting until Monday, they have such a great house and Jake is probably the best dog ever. So far we have watched some TV, ate some pizza and hung out in the backyard.

Keep a look out for more posts and hopefully pictures about my first dog sitting adventure.